dear mom and dad,

as i enter into the last few stages of my jc life,
have our relationships thinned as well?
is our conversation now just a string of sentences like
"where are you now? i'm coming to pick you up."
"buy soba? you're supposed to study!"
"why are you playing? can't you manage your time better and rest instead? that way you can study later."
"You have no right to play at all."
i know you care, but i'm very miserable.
and to tell you how rare i feel that way,
i actually feel strange to this feeling.
unknown... sorrow inside.
=\ i'm not exaggerating, but i never felt this miserable,
it's almost unknown to me.

i don't like it that you assume anything and everything.
assume that i don't plan my time.
when i do, it's because of ur 'interference' that i need to change my plans (yet again).
assume that i go to jurong point to play.
assume that i go to macdonalds to play.
assume that church is a visitation centre that i go as and when i like.
assume that the relationship i have with my cell group is superficial.

sometimes your ways and actions are so ridiculous
i'll sit there, laughing at the whole absurd idea,
and wonder why my eyes turn wet.

i would've tried to write some more angry words
accusing you of your persumptousness,
but it would make my countenance fall even further.
and the last thing i want to do is to dishonor God.
So for His sake, i'll press on.
thank you Joshua, for your encouragement and constant reminder that HE is here =))
for this favour, yes i do think you're a hot dude XD

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
i won't let 'it' take away my Joy.
because it belongs to God =))
(take that, you stupid lucifer >.<)
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