here are the things i have in store for me:

today: cutting my hair, steamboat with my lovelies =D
13th jan: Nanyang Arts Festival Opening Ceremony
14th jan: my day in and out with my goody six shoes! =3
(in which i shall have my RO client again)
16th jan: NIE Fiesta performance
23rd jan: CNY performance
24th jan: CNY @ CHC! =D
12th feb: sammy will FINALLY be back!!

and thus those are the confirmed stuff.
in between i'll probably still have dance everyday.
ahhhh, soooo good!
i wish we can dance everyday XD

it's really like my msn nickname now,
a modified quote from duke orsino from twelfth night:

if dance be the food of love, let us dance;
give me excess of it!

=D

this week has been really interesting.
apart from the 'dance everyday' part XD
i was quite paranoid that aliens might abduct me.
got to know fel even more because of my paranoia XD
she's the funniest thing ever XD

when anyone is with her they just become a mean person =P
like chris will become this big meanie that'll 'suan' her,
faizal will perpetually do stupid things just to make her laugh and laugh till she can't stop.
when i'm with her i found myself laughing at all the silly things that happened to her.
for example, if she were to trip and fall
i'll just keep laughing, instead of being a normal, human being and help her up 0.o
... it's JUST an example =P
it's called xin4 zai1 le4 huo4 =\
for the record, that's the only time i turn mean. =3

still, big love to my uni friends.
smsing me reassurance, accompanying me.
little unrelated things like yimin and i laughing sheepishly in lectures, over small things =P
these things kept my sanity in check.
thanks to them, im feeling better now that im sure aliens will not abduct me
and i'll do my best to be good and not emo about silly things like this again =3
after all, what use is a welfare manager if she needs welfare?
wahahahahahaha XD

i better make sure i remember this as much as i can,
cos if i don't i may lose it forever.
everything i've thought of from afar, i'm seeing it up close.
how come cannot fit? =\
if i do this long enough it kinda feels uncomfortable even XD
but...
so pretty that i want to take a picture =)

john bevere john bevere john bevere!!!!! =D
he's finally back after like, eons!!!!!!!!!
*spend a whole minute prancing around*
actually i spent two months being all excited about john bevere XD
i loveeee his books. 'under cover' was so good, i almost cried reading it.
now he's back!!

oh, in case you misunderstand, he's a christian book author =P
his sermon yesterday was so good.
yet so unsettling.
after the service i feel as if someone just picked me up from my comfort zone,
and FLUNG me into the desert of doubt.
i still need time to pray through this and figure out what's wrong with the whole thing.
but as of now, the problem, whatever it is, isn't solved,
but at least the unsettling feeling is gone.

met the cell group again at jurong point, bakerzin later on.
we had a riot talking about our 10 things that we look for in a spouse XD
here are mine that night!

1. Must be spiritually mature to lead me.
2. Must love God, if not even more than he loves me.
3. Love to read. because in my dream house, i want a room where, from wall to wall to wall, books fill the room top to bottom. they joked that i should marry the beast in 'beauty and the beast' XD yeah maybe i should XD
4. cannot have centre parting =P i don't like it XD some itsy bitsy idiosyncrasy of mine.
5. height wise, from 172cm-188cm i'm fine (whoa, specific 0.o) XD of course, the closer the number is to the shorter range, the more uncomfortable i am XD
6. must be able to tolerate my crazy antics. i'll hate it if the guy tells me not to be so... nutty. =\ if it's a occasion that calls for proper ettiquette, yes i'll be thankful for reminding me. but please, let me be nutty XD the bigger bonus is if that guy can join in my crazy antics XD
7. of course, that guy must be attractive. but definition? as long as he's attractive to me. =) he doesn't need to be attractive to others. like what josh said 'if you're not even attracted to him, there won't be a relationship what.'
8. hahaha it'll be nice if the guy can carry me XD reason? my stature has always earned me the 'guy' in situations, growing up. the best illustration is when girls come to me, lean on my shoulder and crooned 'you're JUST my boyfriend's height' =\ i'm a girl too, and being able to carry me just will satisfy my knowing that i am a girl too.
9. clever. academically clever is secondary. what is important is general knowledge, and EQ.
   

i can't remember what else i've said, so there. 9 things XD
not exhaustive la, in fact, these are just a few of the smaller details i've thought of.
the real full list is still churning in my mind.
still, it was funny listening to flora's list, and josh's, guolei's etc =)

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
are YOU the one? *evil grin*