i'm sick of rejecting people everytime.
i wanna spend time with them too.
why is it that i always have to tell them 'sorry? not this week', 'sorry i can't make it'??
my involvement in the various activites has caused me to only be superficial in my fellowship with all my friends.
if you don't understand it then nvm.
quote my friend, sometimes there are things that you don't explain cos you don't know how to,
and so you just rather leave it like that.
and now it seems to me that explaining more will only make them seem like excuses.

oh man... to clean the house is one thing.
but to use the dry mop cloth to wipe table surfaces,
then vaccuum the floor, dry mop the floor...
then use the wet mop to clean the floor,
and finally a normal wet cloth to clean the floor....
and that's only the living room 0.o

to do it once a week is one thing.
to do this every 2 days requires a lot more time than you think.
yet i cannot bear to see you do this all alone.
but if you're going to clean the house in weekdays OBVIOUSLY i can't help you =\
it takes patience and willpower to tell you what i honestly think =(
as much as i can.. i'll give up half my sunday for you.
so don't... think that i don't care about this house.

i think i need to relook at what is my week like.
i don't believe i have so much to do =\

monday:
morning come to school to study on my own...
then meet up my weekly breakfaster for breakfast.
after that head up to sports room to help out for dancerobics... a workshop by my dance club.
then head for lessons...

at 3.30pm i come out into the open and go for my dinner.
yeap, that's the latest time i can eat dinner for monday. you'll see.
then head up to the student hub.
supposedly to study. and study i would... if all my friends aren't there. =\
and besides, there isn't much time to study cos
at 5.30pm we'll gather to practice dance...
and then dance all the way till... 9:30pm
talk talk, drag drag, dilly dally till we reach canteen A at 10?

then gotta go at 11pm cos of my curfew plus extra caution to go home early.
head home, shower, write diary or read... and then sleep.

hmm... =\

tuesday:
breakfast, lectures...
end school at 1:30.
have lunch, or sometimes i'll head out to spend time with charlene in town.
if not i'll try to study till 5, in which i'll head to town for jap lessons till 9:30.
reach home at 10:30-10:45...

dilly dally to sleep.

(i'm realising i don't study at night =\)

wednesday:
my free day!! =D
but because must submit my weekly assignments...
still gotta go to school =\
might as well spend the day studying there.
but usually there'll ALWAYS be something that happens on wednesday
that'll disrupt me from fully working on my work.

and head home to have my one and only weekday dinner at home.

thursday:
school till 2:30, lunch with jasmine and jocelyn, second round with felicia and chris...
then we head up to uid to play XD
(guilty)
then dance with willy (last lesson THIS WEEK!!! 0.o)
end at 8:30, dilly dally to 9 plus at canteen A.
head home... 0.o

friday:
no school, once again, i should study but things will happen some how XD
but this week is gesl presentation... so no school till 5:30pm.
then cell group till i reach home at 12.

saturday:
the only day i sleep in.
it's church day!! hurray =D
i'll go to church hoping to be able to fellowhship with my friends.
then things will turn up (like gatsby competition, mom) that will make me have to leave =(

sunday:
the only weekend i can study!
i take this day to chiong as much as i can in macs.
i also use this day to go out with whoever that pesters me to spend time with.
so usually this day of studying will be compromised.
then there's my sister who'll complain that i don't help out at home
so i gotta clean the house on some sundays.

after scrutinisation, i'm convinced that i do have time to study.
maybe not much time to spend the WHOLE day with people,
but if i really can, and i really do my work on time,
i can spend time with people =\

so now that you guys know my week... start calling me...
erm... after this week (2500 word essay to be submitted by thurs =P)

oh man... after willy graduates...
dance will be shifted to a FRIDAY EVENING SLOT!!!
that means i can no longer go for dance... >.<
oh well.. the price you pay =)
can i pay 10 dollars club fee instead of 20 dollars now? =3

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
crikey, back to work!!