till now i still don't understand how does math work.
truth is, i love math.
i don't mind studying math.
i don't mind living a life with math.
(which reminds me, that day jocelyn asked me why i didn't study english instead,
since i'm better in it)

but i really really like maths, but... there are times when i don't understand it.
there are times when i simply cannot comprehend the whole thing.
then there will be a moment when i have a eureka moment
and tell myself 'maybe you are getting the hand of it after all'
and the next thing i knew, i'm beaten flat again.
how can i do well? if this continues.
can i handle the pressure? the expectation?
sometimes even with the big incentive, you wonder if you can do well.

i had a taste of what chris has been feeling recently.
but... i guess it's not as big compared to him.
i wonder how does it feel to...

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
deception. there's no point.