yesterday was the first time i had a bad tide of cramps.
wow.
i've NO IDEA how painful it can get.
must say all the while i've been blessed with not having such cramps.
but yesterday it was sooo bad.

it was in the middle of 'hosanna' by hillsong.
when everyone was singing 'heal my heart and make it clean'
i was thinking 'okay, i cannot take it. i must leave the hall.'
so i rushed out from the hall, which is quite a feat
there were so many people and i was in the front few rows XD

then in the toilet... i was thrashing... blah.
i was doing a lot of things i didn't think i'll do.
in the end i found enough strength to stand still while i swallowed the pink pills.
and finally, exhausted, i fell asleep on the church sofa,
and woke up to find that the service ended.

obviously it's a much shorter version of what really happened. XD
i hope it'll never happen to me again =X

there are many things that i held so dear,so strong in mind in the past.
things that i take for granted, things that i take for the natural thing to do.
and thus been viewed differently.
but thank God that after all these, in turmoil and loneliness,
my thoughts never wavered, and never regretted.
from today, my thoughts will forever stay steadfast ^^

just wanna clarify, since someone commented that i write sad posts.
today's post is not sad, just recounting ^^
me no emo-beano =3

heard the song in jasmine's blog.
the twins sang their rendition of the song 'officially missing you' so well.
good harmony, that makes it so good.
hehe, i've always been looking for this song.
recently found it, the title and song.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
officially missing you? i'm always missing you.