i just found out that someone i knew got into comm's at NTU,
and the person didn't do THAT well in 'a' levels too.

does it make me feel sore?
... i thought i would, after all, comms is what i wanted to do, ive been thinking about it for a while.
but now as im typing this, it was for certain that i'm not sore,
nor jealous, nor bitter about this arrangement at all.

if you ask me 'what's your interest?'
and hope to work out my future through them, you're gonna be disappointed.
my interests lie in singing, writing, reading, talking...
nothing of much use in the competitive singapore.
so... if you say that i really wanted comms, now...
i no longer desire to go into NTU comms.

so all in all, what's all this i'm saying?
i pray to my Daddy in heaven
'if it be your will, let me go into NTU comms', but i didn't get it.
i could've appealed back comms, but i applied for NIE.

so, (i'm not answering my question =\) what's really all this??
i say it's truly God's will.
because now, if you were to give me a place in comms, or FASS, or maritime,
i won't give up my NIE place anymore.

it could be partly because i no longer have the interest in those areas.
or that my school fees are now paid by the government.
perhaps, the NIE place is a souvenir, a memorial of what i've gone through to get it.
maybe because it really is God's will.

but who cares?

i am a person who loves to reflect on the past.
but sometimes, even i must remind myself,
that the most important thing in life is the future ahead,
not our mistakes and trials.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
ME WANNA KTV!!!!!! =\