i'm back! it seems that now i'm so caught up with school activities that i plain forget to update you guys on what's happening.

well, another reason is because i've gone back to writing my diary again. i'm just not going to tell you where is my diary. you guys can stop infiltrating my house to look for it =D it takes me 90 minutes to write out the day's events and my feelings, too much trouble... too much. so conveniently i stopped blogging a bit and stuff like that. but i will come in once in a while to post stuff XD

yeah... in fact i stopped RO-ing close to a month ago, so i better start wondering what have i been using my time on.

school... dance... church (which isn't THAT heavy in the first place)... shot to fame preparations... rotting in school... ahh that's the crux of the problem.

well, it was only this week that im feeling extremely unproductive. i literally spent in total of 11 hours out of thursday and friday sitting around with my friends talking. ... wow. but it was good fellowship (if that's considered fellowship) i have been neglecting my dear cell group for too long >.< today i will stay for fellowship!! ... because next saturday i cannot. just in time, today we'll be having some friends like regina over for service. christina must remember to smile and be a great host to the house of God =D

yeap, next saturday is code edge: finals! dancefuzion is going to support willy! =D must must remember to bring a camera instead of my phone XD yay can't wait can't wait XD

i see them, and i feel burden.
is this the harvest that God has placed before my eyes?
yet it's still hard to reap them, their hearts are turned away from Him.
but still i'll be that faithful harvester, and sow into their lives.

sometimes it's rather frustrating that people organise activities on fri night and saturdays, when i have church. and i know we've been through this so many times, but i cannot deny there are times when i wish i can go out with my other friends on a friday night or something. but when i think of such thoughts, i have a big sense of repulsion in myself XD

i cannot shake off the habit of being committed to God, to church, to my cell group. if friday nights and saturdays are what i need to sacrifice to enjoy God's presence, then yes, take me deeper. (*sing* deeper in loveeeee with youuuuuu XD) and the best thing is, i know i don't regret =D

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
say the word, and i will sing for you.