i can't. i just can't.
why can't i just learn how to play basketball?
why do i find it so hard to let basketball draw near me?
many times i do want to learn it, but never does the basketball want to let me.
it doesn't matter which brand of basketball i'm talking about, it doesn't matter.
as soon as i can get close to picking up the ball, someone else picks it up and goes away happily.
it sucks big time to see my friends play basketball,
they know all about it, the jargons and terms,
they share the stories about their victories... and most importantly, their injuries.

all i do is sit by the side quietly, listen to their stories secondhand...
never be able to see these victories and injuries myself.
and tell myself that i'm putting other priorities above the time used to play basketball.
till now i know that i WILL put the other priorities over basketball practice.
but... because of the lack of practice, or whatever crappy reason...
i can't. i just can't.

by the way, in case you basketball/sports fans out there are getting excited over me finally wanting to exercise... this is JUST another metaphorical post. by that it's pretty easy to see what i'm sad about.

my first sad post since... *shrug*

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
you've every right to, but please be more selfless.
you don't need placebo as much as others.
you know... it's time to stop being selfish already.