i, christina chiang, did something i never thought i could do.
nor i ever thought that anyone could ever, not even my mom, influenced me to do.
i jogged.
hehe, i never thought i'll really start... running.
all give credit to chris.
he has certainly done the impossible.

i wish i can say that i was all splendid in the morning jog.
on the contrary, i half died.
and it definitely wasn't in my expectations.
expected better of myself.
oh well, it's a start nevertheless.

so now my muscles are aching all over because of the run
and the swim (yes, i went for my first swimming session with fel and jas too!)
muscles that i never even knew existed started aching. =\
and it's not like i gave it my all yet.
such unfitness =P

despite these efforts, some people can be at the side, talking stuff that are just... redundant.
things that hurt me, things that may be the truth.
so i see that people think i'm f*t, or that my arms are th**k,
my face is r**nd, they tease about the app**ite that i was once so proud of.

i wish you all will shut up.
i am proud of my appetite.
but because of the stupid things and mentalities of the world,
i'm starting to feel ashamed of my huge appetite.
i wish i don't have to lie, saying 'no thanks, i'm full.'

i may now start to exercise,
and while losing weight is my ultimate goal,
it's not like henceforth i'm going to give up on food
and chew on celery.
i'm still going to enjoy my food, like it or not.
because this is the life that God has given me.
yes, i take care of myself, but i don't want to waste it worrying about the digits.

so... im sorry for venting all like this.
but the past week wasn't pretty for me.
and until these people stop what they're doing,
i guess i'm gonna be some mean kitty.
i mean... fat kitty =X

i need to cheer myself up.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
my self-esteem has reached an all-time low.