Battlefield

i am a soldier.
i'm standing in an open field, the battlefield.
on my left and right, are my friends, my comrades.

one by one, i see them win their battles.
some ran across to the other side, beckoning me to follow.
some of them aren't so lucky though.
they were killed before they could give the enemy the critical blow.

i stared at my adversary, the master of deception.
he bared his teeth at me, grinning in smugness.
for the past few bouts we've had, i barely scraped through each one.
he taunted my ability, he poked fun of my character,
this time he dared me to win him and emerge victorious.
was he menancing? very.
was i afraid? damn afraid.

looking around, i frowned in worry.
where is my commander?
the one who had lead me through my training, my missions?
the one who encouraged me when i'm weak and weary?
the one who promised never to leave me nor forsake me?
i cannot see Him at all, where is He?
without Him, i'll lose my hope, my vision, my direction in life.
if my commander is gone, what's the point in continuing?

i looked at the opponent, dread filling every part of my soul.
i know, i know, inside of me, my own mind is screaming
'there is hope still! don't give up! look for alternative routes!'
but my soul is wrecked with fear, stunned by despair.

behind me, are other soldiers in my army. they've given up hope.
they threw their swords onto the ground and raised their hands in surrender,
allowing the enemy to consume them whole.

i gave a grim smile, and looked at my sword, ready to throw it away like how they did too.
that's when i saw, inscripted by the side, the words 'i give my whole life to You.'
memories return to me, of how i offered my life into the hands of my commander.
knowing and trusting that He will guide me to victory.
yes, how can i forget? i've sworn by my sword to fight for Him all the way!

'SO, puny, pathetic creature,' my enemy, Lucifer, sneered.
'are you ready to face your bleak destiny?'
i smirked at him. 'i should say that to you,' i grabbed my sword. 'take that!!!!'

i have no fear.
because somewhere out there,
i know my commander is still watching over me and protecting me.

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this has NOTHING to do with crisis core,
though i must say that it played a small part in contributing to the illustration =P

oh by the way, i'm rejected by NUS, NTU and SMU. merry christmas.
yeah, christmas has sure come early this year.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
but still i fight on.