okay... me no more slacking in blogging. me come back.

1st of nov was really hard for about 8 odd of us in church that day.
we're all going to be reshuffled and all.

there i was, listening to elyn, while my girls are sniffling,
there i was, telling myself that i won't cry until at least elyn's done,
but i failed. i still cried.
still! i wiped my tears and waited till she stopped,
till i asked 'can i cry now?' before the tears really came out in... torrents.

i remembered every darn person in the cell group.
i remembered scolding jin hong 'i followed you for 2 years! and you're leaving me?! why??'
i remembered suaning joshua because he will be following me to the new cell group XD
i remembered hugging elyn for the very first time.
i remembered crying the hardest when i saw sarah, who is leaving me.
i remembered smiling at sitong, for she'll be with me to grow too.
i remembered saying something to guoyang, but more of what he said to me XD
i remembered looking at sam chew and wonder if i'll ever see him again.
i remembered telling nattarat that it's time for him to step up and help huimei.

me, sitong, joshua, sam lu are going to one cell group,
and everyone else into different cell groups.
so weird. elyn herself may end up in expo service =(

thereafter i felt worse that i wasn't able to stay and fellowship with them,
for i had a dinner with IFS at vivocity.
sure, my raw feelings and sorrows melted away
upon seeing my weird boy, denise, ouyang, regina, jacob etc etc etc.
but i went home feeling weird all over.
like a knowledge that a part of you is going to stop growing in your body.

but thank you for that talk (though we talked non-related stuff),
and You for everything else. =)

then sarah and i met up on monday IKEA to have dinner,
shop for stuff for elyn's appreciation gift, more fellowship.
and on tuesday we met up to make the thing at MOS burger.
quite fun to bump into chris, alvin and yimin, who were going for dinner.
i always feel a good sense of satisfaction
when two completely different parts of my world meet.
but also a sense of dissatisfaction
when you see both parties are not as willing to be 'friend friend' XD

then friday... potluck, appreciation...
i must say... i'm glad our cell group ended in a happy note.
as in, it was not sobbish like the multiplication of w363.
we ended up in laughter, more memories,
(not to mention my "drunkened" series, that joshua NEEDS to show me)
and a greater knowledge that this relationship is eternal
(we're so not joking about this =P)

on the other hand, i met my new cell group on saturday.
i know some of them from camp and make up cell group before,
so hey, doesn't seem so bad =D
me like my leader cindy, she's nice ^^
and i found out that one of my new members peng bo,
knows jack sim =D in fact, they're neighbours.
*sing* it's a small world after all~ XD

today i finally experienced the meaning of 'cramming for an exam'
i've never felt the literal meaning of stuffing information in my head
.. until today.
and it not only proves that i can't last minute study,
it also proves that cramming for exam is just not something fun to do.

so many things in my mind, so many words i live by.
but stop, for it may be a passing dream.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
don't toe the line.