is it so that i have suffered for your sake?
gladly i'll suffer for you again.

it had been something so simple, and never once did i think that i will have to go through it.
so plain ridiculous, but now now, who CAN understand you?

should i have compromised my own moral standards and lie?
i don't know so. i should think not.
even if i have to suffer more, i can't bear to think about lying about you.
worse off, i don't want to lie TO you.
you know me and all about me, even the very things i don't know about myself.

just that, it was sooo sweet the temptation.
all i had to do is deny...
and i'll be free.
but no, isn't that defeating the purpose for whatever that has happened?
no, for your sake i continue to be persecuted, ridiculed, said to be brainwashed.
all for your sake.

even now as i type, my mind has been made up.
there's no compromisation, no lying.
although i may not deliver what i say.
it's a twist of words, a whole wordplay routine.

but is it right in your eyes?
you see, it's you that i care about.
honestly, it's what you think, that's all that i care about.
forsake the world and run to you. that's what i want.
yet.... i'm too afraid to do so, too calculative, too worrisome.

sometimes i wonder why don't you come and take me away instead?
i wanna fly high with you, be so close to you, even if it's for an hour...
for all we know, one hour with you is enough to send me back to endure further.
...i know that THAT hasn't happened because you know i can't deliver what i just said for sure XD

many people before me gone through and suffered worse than me.
if they can suffer through the harsh-ness of the world,
... surely i can too.

everyday i live for you. i love you.
i have been faithful to you and never doubted you.
and all these i'll do for you, my commander,
as long as you never leave me nor forsake me.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
the battle is back on, can you feel it?