here are some of the happiest moments in this week:

• chatting with felicia about heart to heart stuff while sitting on swings =)
• a great time at the bbq, ling's house.
  
• having xinhong bless me with dinner ^^
  
• having enxian as company early in the morning in the polyclinic.
• upon opening the plastic bag to reveal... the 2009 calender: pearls before swine theme!! big love to jack jack =D
  
• the tears that welled up inside of me as i turned to see the beautiful candles flickering in the darkness.. and hear the congregation singing with me 'fall on your knees... oh hear the angels' voices..'
• the tears that really fell as i sang 'Be near me, Lord Jesus... I ask Thee to stay... Close by me forever... And love me I pray...'
• receiving a nice gift from joshua (yes honey, your gift brightened up my day!)
  
• to finally be able to wake up at 8.30 am in the morning again! (though for that i slept at 10PM =\) say goodbye to waking up at 9 or 10am!!!
• the welcoming of a new book (breaking dawn) into my good ol family of books =)
  
• grocery shopping at cold storage. enough said =)
• the thought of christmas dinner... accompanied by home-made shirley's temple and good ol unhealthy food.

yeah, thank God for these. =)

i'm seriously wrecking some havoc.
here are the things i'm up to,
and some of them i never thought will happen to me.

still sick. in fact, i'm basically coughing up every minute in the morning and night.
the worse thing? i have to hide the seriousness in front of my sister.

in my complete boredom, i ended up finishing up twilight, new moon
and i am now halfway of eclipse.
it's a good thing i -paced- myself slower than i used to.
it'll suck if i finished all three books in 2 days.

i know i have so much to do...
but i just am not doing anything.
this week i literally allowed myself to rot into nothingness.
i hope it's just because i'm sick...
or that i'm just being plain lazy.

went for ling's bbq, and went home having tasted NOTHING of the food =\
everyone insisted that my throat will worsen if i had eaten bbq food.
so i had dinner bought in (by xinhong)
and a full litre of water. =\
it kinda sucks going to a party and not be able to eat anything there.
it's like fasting.

watched the movie 'twilight',
while i only think robert patinson looks really cute ONLY in that prom scene,
i kept noticing his distinct jawline..
and wonder why it looks so familiar..

with 'nothing' to do,
i found myself slipping back into old habits which i don't want to say.

also, i hardly go on msn now.

i wish i have RO back.
anything to distract me and keep me busy.

found myself sleeping earlier and earlier.
am i being reduced to such lack of a life that the only thing i can do now is sleep????
to my disgust, i'm still waking up at the atrocious 10-11 in the morning,
sometimes i wake up at 12 0.o how???
i only woke up at 8.30AM today because the blaring alarm wouldn't stop. =\

and princess is helping me wreck havoc too...
SHE CHEWED UP MY 'ECLIPSE'!!!
so now my book is 5% gone. =\
not only that, today she spilled a cup of milk.
geez, she sure know what are the favourites of mine to destroy...

so i was saying... i am just wrecking havoc...
in your absence.

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
my beloved Saviour is 2008 years old!!
yet He's still as youthful and beautiful in my eyes as the first time i met Him
(which still isn't that long ago compared to his age =P)