you said that i don't seem to spend time with you at all.
you said that whenever i'm with you, i don't look energetic.
you said that i don't seem to love you.

how can i? when everything i do never seem to make you satisfied.
when my actions will only lead to more criticism and disapproval.
when your expectations are so unattainable that,
to meet them i have to give up my many aspects of life?

i do care for you, so i guess... i do love you.
but i know, i don't express it out.
and i really don't know how can i do so, if you're going to be like this.

cell group appreciation!!
theme: the return of the atas gone wild 2!!
oh man, it was fantastic!!
the games, the food, the praise and worship, the fellowship, the fun and laughter!!
it's too much to say, too little time given.

once again, my favourite: everyone writing something about each other.
here are some of the messages people left that caught my attention:

joel wrote:
dear christina: WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS HUNGRY???
wahahahahhahahahahaha!!
oh man!! XD it bothered me a bit,
so i replied him saying that i'll probably do something about it.
and he replied 'it's God's blessing to be able to eat!!'
awww =3

sarah wrote:
2008 has definitely been a great year for us both.
yes sarah, it really have.
in so many ways more than one. =)

joshua wrote:
YOU NEED JESUS!!!!
=\ and also this very funny sentence.
i'll always look to you like a little sister, beware!
i was wondering aloud 'why beware?'
and sarah offered 'maybe because he's not going to be a very good brother?'
wahahhaha XD

guolei wrote:
let us be faithful forever
don't mind me, he isn't that good in writing english, i know,
but it still sounded to me like some matrimony sentence XD
he's really sweet, so i'll stop the teasing here =)

yizhen wrote:
thanks so much for your friendship for this one month (and still ongoing!)
=)) yizhen is really one of the sweetest girls i know in the cell group ^^
i know i'll really love spending time with her =D

dear cell group, i'm still trying to know everyone,
and i don't want to lose any opportunity.
so give me some time =)

okay, holidays are ending, me happy.
i've been so restless and all.
i mean it christina, get rid of your cough and flu once and for all!!
rawr!!!

Words of the *~PaRaNoId QuEEn~*
last week of 2008 =)